Swiftly Kicking My Own Ass

Let's get right into it: sometimes we just need a swift kick in our own ass. In a way, this blog is sort of like a 'resolution" for me, but I'm starting now because I feel the energy, and there's no reason to wait until the new year if the energy is here today. (Though, don't think we won't talk about 2022 and the numerological symbolism of the upcoming year VERY soon). It's time for me to step my game up. Let me be clear in saying, I don't love "hustle" culture, and I don't think we should ever feel like we NEED to be "doing more." But, with that said, the latter half of 2021 sort of felt like a bigggggg rest for my business, and truthfully, I just got kind of lazy. Call it burnout, call it healing, or call it feeling uninspired - whatever it was, it's been funky and I'm ready for it to be done now. Specifically, I took a break from properly marketing myself, keeping up with my blog writing, and investing in my business. When you want to achieve goals and manifest your dream life, these are things you have to keep up with. Yes, I invested in my self-care, and kept up with my personal growth, but during that healing time, I uncovered (again) that part of my healing journey is learning not to self-sabotage by giving up early, or dropping the ball in areas simply because I don't enjoy doing them.

Booty picture from Tulum just because

I genuinely love what I do; but, like anything, some days I convince myself I don't. It's the moments when someone gets done with a session, or I leave a party, and hear, "That was so incredible, thank you," or "I feel so much lighter and grounded" or "You've made me a believer," that I beam with excitement about getting to do this "work." But there are many aspects of running a small business that I don't love, and those are the areas that I slack. One of my 2022 goals is to grow my business to a place that I will be able to hire a virtual assistant, or someone to freelance some of those things I don't love, so I can focus solely on working with clients and writing (if you think this might be you, I'm open to chatting more now). I will be an overall happier and more motivated person when I'm able to think less about creating content & keeping up with other administrative tasks (website maintenance, email chains, etc), than I do now. I'm aware that in order for this goal to manifest, I must consistently do the hard work now that I will reallocate in the future.

The thing about "creating your dream life" is that many people think, or preach even: "Just give it all to God," or "Ask the Universe, and be open to receiving," but the truth is we are co-creators with God for our life. It's a collaboration. We absolutely should pray, and meditate, and journal, about what we want and how much we appreciate the Universe, but we must also make. fucking. moves. We must take inspired action, and be willing to work hard. We must listen to God's signs, and follow them without fear. So for me that looks like: spending time creating HIGH QUALITY content for my website and repackaging and flowing that content to all social media platforms (rather than what I've been doing which is: half-assing, quick, daily content, primarily for IG), getting better systems in place on my website (or maybe creating an entirely new one, ugh), and investing in some things that I need in order to take my impact and creativity to the next level (nice camera, hard drive, some instruments, etc). I'm not exactly sure why I feel the need to share all these specific details here, except that I'm a believer in transparency. It feels good to admit, "I've been kind of sucking at my business, and I'm gonna try harder now." I think verbalizing goals and sharing what we're working towards can make us more inspired to follow through, because whether it's true or not, we feel like we're being watched. It's definitely just an ego thing, but as much as some new agers want to tell you to "dissolve your ego," I don't think that's entirely possible, and I'm all for using my ego in a productive way (working hard because I believe people are paying attention to me and will call me on my shit if I don't) rather than simply a material way.

I guess what I'm saying is: this life gets to be fun. And if you want it to simple or easy, it can be; but there are also levels which are incredible, and worthy of being discovered, that can only be obtained through dedication and hard work. I have so many fun ideas that I haven't yet completed because of one excuse or another, but am so excited to drop those excuses and get going. I hope you'll enjoy being of witness to it, and maybe even feel inspired to hold yourself accountable to the things you've been wanting to do as well. There's nothing more that I want than for us all to thrive.

Your growth and peace are within reach.